Everybody Has These Days

Matampuhin. Moody. Masungit.

Tampo Effect. :)) In this picture: Ramon
Photo courtesy of Anj. 04/12/11

Name it, I've been experiencing intense mood swings for 2 days now. It really happens once in a while for no reason at all, kaya lang this is not my usual self and it affects aspects of my everyday living like working and loving. Yes naman, loving. And working on a summer break. Pero totoo, affected talaga. I just hope I go back to normal by tomorrow. Andaming gagawin, andaming aasikasuhin. Isa pa, walang lugar ang mood swings para sa isang taong nasa isang lugar na masaya.

All I needed today was a hug. And I thank Friend for giving me some. I've felt so much better since kanina. Got 'initiated' hugs from Ate Jese, too. Hahaha. At salamat din sa marami pang iba. 

Minsan, hindi ko naman talaga kailangan magsalita. 

Minsan, konting lambing lang naman ang kailangan.

Minsan, may mga bagay na nangyayari nalang talaga.

[Ang emo lang? XD]

A Principle on Friendship

We don't lose friends, we just lose people - when we come to the realization that they never were true to you. A principle that proves itself over and over again.

Ang status ko sa facebook na kasalukuyang bumebenta (read: reaping likes) ngayong gabi. Namench, may pinaghuhugutan akech. Pero hindi naman ganun kalalim, kasi kung ano man yung malalim na yun, nahugot ko na - matagal na. Medyo nauulit lang siya ngayon in the experience of my friends. Ito yung prinsipyong na-adopt ko noong panahon na lumong lumo ako sa pagkawala ng inakala ko noong matatag na pagkakaibigan. Ito yung prinsipyo na nagpaintindi sa akin na may mga pagkakataong kahit gaano ka kabuting kaibigan, hindi mo maaaring makaibigan ang taong hindi alam kung papano ito pahalagahan.

Kaya eto, Good Vibes lang ako. 

Ano pa nga ba ang makasisira sa kasiyahan ko ngayon? :)

The Sweetest Things (A Reply)

A reply to Kuya Myk's The Sweetest Things.



It's not that hard to touch me.
No, don't get me wrong. I mean, it's not that hard to touch my emotions. People close to me know how shallow I could be, in a good sense as I want to believe. Simple gestures of sweetness easily puts a smile on my face and makes me feel very grateful, big or small, it makes me feel really really grateful. That's why it wouldn't be a surprise if these are the sweetest things to get through Renzo Enrico Blanco.

1. Text me out of the blue. Random personal messages like, "Kumusta ka?" or "Hi, Renzo :)" This gives me the impression that you think of me or at least I pop in your head once in a while. I find it really sweet when someone checks on me because they just thought of me.
2. Walk me to the exit gate or door. Walking me to my house would be too much, but walking me to the exit is one really sweet gesture only a few could pull off. It's sweet if you do this after reading my post. But it's sweeter if you do this because you just want to.
3. Send me a smiley. This brightens up my day - be it a text message, a wallpost, a note in my book, sending me smileys is one sweet way to make my day.
4. Give me a rose. Only Dom, my good friend, has done this for me. It was for Christmas. It was really sweet of him, and I remember carrying it with me until the end of the day. Flowers and chocolates are cliche, yes, but it still is sweet.
5. Introduce me to your friends. Make me feel that you are really happy to have me and that you want me to get along with your friends because I am a special person in your life.
6. Ask me out - on a date. I've never been on a date. Yes, I've went out with people, but not on a date. For me, a date is going out and all along both of you acknowledge it as a date. Not because you went out does not mean you're on a date. It has to be mutual. Asking me out still is sweet, but on a date? Boy that is sweeeet.
7. Hug me. I like hugging and being hugged. I hug my friends when we see each other, when we are about to separate ways. This has become ordinary in a sense that it happens everyday with every friend I am with. So, the challenge? Make the hugs extra special. Make it sweet.
8. Be my sleeping companion. Intimate it is, but what makes this sweeter is being able to make me feel secure, comfortable, and loved. This is an effective way to test your rapport, respect, and intimacy.
9. Eat with me. I love food, and I love bonding over food. I believe sharing meals is as intimate as sharing the bed. I don't eat with people I am not close with, I'd rather eat alone or dine out. Also, bonding over food is a fun way to enjoy each others' company plus it is a perfect opportunity for a good and fruitful conversation. It's a bonus if you can cook for me.
10. Walk with me. On the road, on the corridors, on the beach, on the bridge, to anywhere, just walk with me. I love long walks, and I seldom do it with someone alone. Only a handful could keep up with my pace, a few people really special to me, people who could sustain the conversation and the connection between us - all while walking. One of the sweetest ways to spend time with each other, I must say.
11. Do something spontaneously sweet. I love spontaneity. I love sweetness. I love it together.

Those 11 and a countless more are the sweet ways to make me go awwweee.

But remember, always do your own thing and always be yourself. 

It's sweet to know that you can be yourself around me every time. 

It's sweeter to make me feel that way with you, too. :)

Did I just give a 12th? I better stop here. =p

How about you, what are the sweet things a person could do for you? :)

If You're Happy and You Know It...

I never thought that being happy could be so complicated.

Well maybe it's just me, being conscious and mindful of all the happenings and feelings around - things that try to penetrate my almost perfect picture of happiness. Things that, when well-thought of, should not be in the picture in the first place. But here they are, in constant motion, causing a blur.

I have learned that I was the one who let these things affect everything - and I take responsibility for that. How I wish I could take my actions and decisions back, but we all know I can't. So I'm gonna do what I've been doing since I decided to "don't care about all the pain in front of me...": appreciate the beautiful picture, ignoring the blur that surrounds it. A blur, a coffee stain, a faded photograph - it will still be one of the most beautiful picture there is to keep.

And to end this post, I continue the song by Leona Lewis quoted above,


"...I just want to be happy."